Torn

I feel torn.

I feel so desperately like I have two homes. I just seem to have been lumbered with the impossible decision of which to live in. The frustrating thing is, I am the one that has lumbered myself with it.

Although the UK will always be home for me I feel it is more of a base, a safety net so if all else fails I have somewhere to return too.

Living in Holland was such an incredible experience for me but I somehow feel I have unfinished business there.

Before moving to the Netherlands I had two goals, to learn the language and to explore the country. Neither of which I accomplished.

Would it be so bad to go back and finish what I started?

I'm overly aware of the fact things will have changed. For started I won't have my ex there as a safety blanket and the majority of my friends will have returned to their home countries. However, if I go expecting a whole new experience as appose to trying to recreate the old one, surely there is a strong possibility it could work?