Conclusions

Things all seem a little clearer today.

In my head I have already moved. Of course I have doubts but have come to the conclusion that I have nothing to lose.

I don't have anything major keeping me in the UK, so I have a stability of an mediocre job and somewhere to live but that's about it, I can have that in Holland.

I spoke to my landlord (bent a few truths..) and he said that as long as I give a months notice I am still able to get my deposit back, I'm considering going back to Mums for a while as the rent is cheaper and will enable me to save a bit of cash before I move (if I move..)

I'm also considering studying in Rotterdam, I think this might give me some sort of purpose and something to focus on rather than plodding on through a shitty job. However, anyone who knows me is quite aware that I come up with these studying ideas pretty often so we'll have to see about that one (Ineke..)!